I haven't gone anywhere. Just dealing with crap. Have you ever found yourself smack dab in the middle of a situation you swore to yourself would never be an issue for you? I can't even bring myself to say it outloud. So typing it is not going to happen. This is potentially a moral dilemma. Then again I could be wrong, but something tells me I'm not. I always thought this answer would be easy for me. Of course my heart being involved never crossed my mind either. It's easy to theorize things until your actually face to face with it. I feel adrift in the ocean, at the mercy of the tide. Storms are coming and there's no shore in sight. Please God, let me be wrong.