Maybe...ships passing

How many mistakes will you watch me make before you walk away? Working on quite the collection right now. How blind will you allow me to be? You tried to hide, but I saw, and I ignored it. It couldn't possibly be real, I had to of misunderstood. It was there every time, and I knew but pretended not to. So I stupidly ran. Maybe I fell down because something hurt when I ran. Are you being patient? Even when you said it out loud to me after I fucked up, I dismissed it and told you I didn't want to hurt you because I know how I am. It was never awkward, it never could be. It's you and me. What it must have taken for you to tell me and I barely acknowledged your words. Didn't want to hear them, couldn't believe you said them. Finally it caught up to me, in a ton of bricks sort of way, and I know it wasn't you I ran from. It was me. Did you know you can't run from what you feel inside? Distance and time never killed this, but my foolishness, stupidity and hurting you may have. Maybe I'll say it, maybe I can get it out before it's too late. Maybe the "what ifs" will stop keeping me up at night. Maybe you won't laugh at me and tell me to kick rocks. Maybe you won't be angry, maybe you're not angry now. If you are, I deserve it. Maybe you didn't have any "rights" to be pissed, but you weren't wrong for feeling the way you did. Maybe you forgave me, but I still have to forgive myself. Maybe your friendship is worth me keeping my mouth shut....maybe it won't hurt you if I do.

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait?
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

-Nickelback